OK. Big breath. So. I have begun halving my medication....hoping to be off it by next Friday. Am I nervous? Absolutely. I honestly have begun to believe that I can't do it on my own and that the Zoloft keeps me going. But who wants to be dependent on that crap the rest of their life? What's funny? The sunshine helps. SERIOUSLY!!! I feel SUPERB when I am outside....basking. So, since it is Spring, and more sun should be showing up.....I will be attempting life free from drugs! Yay me. Importantly I need to say that after reading my cute sister-in-law's blog and how she is going to take charge of her emotions....I was quite inspired! AND a bit competitive. Come on, if she can do it-so can I! So thanks Leesh.....be prepared for phone calls since I have designated you as my "go to" when it gets rough. Hee hee. Now, on the lighter side, Patrick has only a little over a month and he is done with school! I know I have made such claims before (and so has he) but this is most definitely it! Then comes decisions....to stay, to leave, to quit, to push through....ugh. Why can't things just go how you want them too without ANY hiccups? But no matter which way it goes....Colorado has been fun. We have really enjoyed our time here as a family and I think have bonded on a whole new level. It's been quite the challenge to be dependent on just each other....but now Patrick and I are closer than ever! I really LOVE this boy. He has really put up with so much to get us through this last year. ALl the while acquiring another degree and working constantly at a crappy job. AMAZING. My boys are my constant. Caden continuously reminds me how to be compassionate and is the greatest big brother. He is always taking care of Gabriel be it changing diapers, providing toys, making him laugh when mommy can't get him to stop crying and sticking up for him when Mommy and Daddy get a little frustrated. "Be nice to my Gabe!" I guess I can post a few things about my baby as well. He is always GO GO GO. No Sleep (which is hard) but plays his hardest, smiles his hardest, and really entertains all of us continuously. He has such a sweet, non conditional personality, that it will be so much fun to be his mother as he grows. I have been TRULY blessWe'ed with the men in my life and I feel so complete. We're happy, somewhat healthy (still fighting a cold), and living (and loving) life!
